May 2012
Let's start over?
Let’s go back to day one. When we first met. Let’s restart. Cause the way we are now… It’s not how I want it to be.
I'm the kind of person who gets happy from the littlest things.
When I need someone the most,
there’s no one there. But when someone else needs me, I’m always there. I don’t understand. I’m such a good friend to those who seem like they really need it, but when it comes to my needs, no one cares. Sometimes I feel like I care about people too much and in return, no one seems to care about me the same way I do.
Please don't do that to me. You don't know how much it hurts when you tell someone they mean something to you, and then you just leave.
It feels weird not talking to you everyday.
Behind my bitchy, sarcastic attitude is a person who actually is willing to give up their time for others and be a nice, caring person.
Never disrespect girls.
Sometimes, I can’t believe that there are some guys out there that aren’t aware of the things they do to women. How could you even yell/cuss at a girl, or even worse, physically hit her? That’s just a really low move to do. I don’t care if you didn’t mean it, or it was an “accident”; that is not acceptable.
You're different from the rest.
I don't like people who starts shit for no reason at all.
I'm a sucker for nice eyes and smile.
I wish I was photogenic.
I wish I can just take one picture and feel confident about it. But instead, I have to take like 458732 pictures and choose one that I think is the best.
Appreciate the little things.
Those little things that make you happy, those people who make you laugh and smile. Learn from the past. Don’t let it break or define you. Things happen for a reason. Make sure you make the most of what you have. Show your family and friends how much they mean to you and how much you appreciate them. Smile and make the most of your life. Make it what you want it to be. Don’t take the little things for granted.
Expecting so much and getting nothing in return.
- my reaction to everything: omg
She doesn't deserve to be called your "best friend".
You need to open your eyes and realize that she shouldn’t be the one that’s gonna be “by your side”, because clearly, she never has been. She treats you like shit but you still let her get by? No way. I don’t want you to get hurt like that. There’s a lot of other people who you could’ve chosen but instead, I see you have chosen the wrong path and said she’s your best friend instead. I sense it already, you’re going to regret that in the future.
I hate being lied to.
You know what that shows? The fact I’m not worth the truth. It shows that I can’t trust you. Maybe you will say sorry for everything but its not going to help and its not going to make me forgive you so easily. Trust is hardly given. Trust takes time to gain back. Don’t lie to me because I won’t take you back easily as a friend or whoever you are to me.
April 2012
I just fall for you more & more each day.
The best feeling in the world is knowing there's someone who knows about your mistakes and weaknesses and still finds you amazing.
Fuck it, tell your excuses to someone else. I'm done with you.
one time i went to this nightclub and partied so hard it was so fun
You wonder why I’m insecure? Because there are girls out there who look gorgeous without even trying. When they wake up they look like angels. When I wake up, I look like I just got out of a war. Those photogenic girls who look good in every photo. When someone takes a photo of me, my face looks half retarded. They don’t even need to dress nicely and they’ll still look good. How they can capture your attention just by walking past. I want to be able to do that.
AMEN
Just because I don't talk about my problems, doesn't mean I don't have any.
I miss the old me.
I miss being happy all the time. I miss the times when there was no drama with my friends, I miss having a really smile on my face. I miss being care free and brave. I miss being close with my mom and dad. I miss being a kid, I miss being the old me.
